Ok! I've come to conclude that nothing good ever happens to my life! When i somehow somewhat manage to muster some sort of an ambition which really means a lot to me and i really really really want it... i will never get it. I will frequently land into a second choice, or something i 'can settle with', which is not bad too............

Then again, nothing bad ever happens to me either. I've never gotten into an accident before. Nor failed an exam. I haven't lost someone important (choi!). My life is just very unexciting and bland. I can totally foresee my life now. You see, i have been the exceptionally normal kid who does pretty ok in her studies. She scrapes past her papers with fairly good grades, gets into a local university, does something 'practical' like economics, and graduates. She will then find a job in an office and work all her life inside her cubicle. She will get married at 30, have 2 kids, go on a holiday to Bangkok/Hong Kong/insert-names-of-typical-holiday-spots-which-aren't-too-exciting once in a while, retire at 65, get cancer at 80 then dies.

It's not that i never tried to do something exciting to my life! These plans simply just don't materialize. Dondon says it's cos i didn't want it hard/long enough. How hard is hard and how long is long? Hmm. How to measure???

I think, when some people say life is fair, the only way i could think of it true is how nothing ever extreme happens to me. The most intense pain i've ever felt would be on occasions when i don't get what i terribly wanted. Fair enough?
LingS | 12:31 AM