Yay! i love my friends! cos they think i'm chio and entertaining. and they'll kill brandon if he finds me a bore. ok maybe not kill.

Anyway, it's really comforting to have friends who are so encouraging all the time. especially when you're feeling insecure and the downest in the dumps. occasionally when i'm pms-ing and i feel like no one in the world cares about me, someone will tag something nice on my board and i'll get all smiley again! (no wonder austin thinks no one loves him when his nobody commented in his blog) yes friends are the best things in the world, and i truly believe that they fill up the empty void in your heart and bring you to the path of eternal happiness (nudge nudge haha).

I especially felt so when i came about a heartbreak of a good friend lately. then i stole a peek at the calendar and realised it's been more than a year since that period of series of the most unfortunate events of my life.

Hmm. the most unfortunate event isn't my heartbreak itself really. because when i looked back eventually it seems quite fortunate.

But unfortunate events occured as the aftermath of the heartbreak incident. hurtful rumours that fly around even long after it happened (i didn't realise i was so popular); and certain Very Bad people around who tries so hard to hurt you when you're at your lowest, i think that was the biggest heartbreak. it fact, it was so excruciating, cos i began to have ideas that i must have been a terrible person to deserve such treatment in return.

Ha! but i knew what they did was shameless anyway. i wished that all their friends would see how shameless they really are.

You all are Very Bad.

But through this series of most unfortunate events, many of my friends truly touched my heart. i might not have been very close to them, but i was moved by their sincerity, even if it's just a few kind words :) they all make me wanna become a better person like them.

Whee! so it's a happy ending. my 18th birthday was the most depressing one evereverever (by the way you should know that my birthday actually falls on AUGUST 26th), but through my tears, a friend called and sang a birthday song to me over the phone. so nice right heehee i was so touched. so really wonderful of him.

Ya ok the friend was brandon. but back then he was still 'a friend' only.


So just now i was talking about friends right? now lemme tell you about Bad People. they are really Very Bad cos they made me Sad but now i'm no longer Sad which makes them Mad and

i'm so happyhappy now cos i'm

pulled closer to my REAL friends.

found the most wonderful hotshot man in my life.

chio and entertaining.

school is great. although not the grades.

and i'm proud of everything i am.

and this is not a poem in case if you read melf's blog and think it is.

dang.
LingS | 1:09 AM

Yay brandon not only can fly a plane, he can drive a car now, and he's currently serving as my personal chauffeur. so good. :D so we meet up for lunch/dinner on some weekdays in between work and dance. and on sat after morning dance we'll meet for lunch. maybe slack around in his house or take a stroll outside. then eat dinner. then go home.

See everything is great. but the thing is, i know that he knows that i know that he knows that it's beginning to feel like a routine. sometimes i decided that i should just take it up myself to plan an exciting day out for us, but i'm so worn out by work and dance everyday that i don't feel like doing anything but just slack around -----> and this is such a terrible excuse!!!

:( what if he gets really bored with me?? maybe he already does!!! how????? quick help me think of something!!!!!
LingS | 10:01 PM

Helloooooo blog. my last day of work is this fri and i'm very happy that i will get about $630 after only working for 3 weeks minus one day, taking into consideration of CPF and times where i've been late. speaking of lateless, i was late today. it was raining. boy, you can never imagine how many people are late for work everyday on the whole. especially on rainy days.


Work starts at 9.30am for me, and i know most people start at 9am. so the thing is, usually the train is not packed when i board it cos it's already a little past peak. but on rainy days, the train gets reeeally more packed than usual at my time. so i figured out the most likely reason is that

1) People stay in bed longer, and need to take some time to search out their umbrellas, so they're later than usual.

Or it could be 2) It's dangerous/slower to drive on rainy days so everyone takes the train.

And i think 1) is more likely than 2) because i see people RUNNING. as soon as the train door opens, they hurryupfasterquickly RUN to the escalator/lift (whichever is nearer), through the barrier along the underground tunnel. i don't see why they would run if they weren't late.

But me as usual was walking leisurely and amusing myself watching those people run. cos it doesn't matter if i'm late for 1 min or 15mins anyway. but it matters if i'm late for 16mins though. aiya, it's complicated.


So anyway, this is my time-table of the week:

Mon: work, jazz dance
Tues: work, jazz dance
Wed: work, jazz dance
Thurs: work, possible nice special secretive lunch with brandon, jazz dance
Fri: work, rag dance
Sat: jazz dance, activities that can make me happy
Sun: free

Ya. i dunno how i survive with this kinda programme. i think cos i haven't come to terms with it yet. or maybe the possible nice special secretive lunch made everything good. :)

And we use the common area at AS7 for most of our jazz practices. there'll be other groups doing their dances/drama/singing/orientation whatever at that area as well. so on some fine days we'll spot this group of 5 very tall and super wannabe looking boys singing ni de da yan jing~~ or tian tian dou shi hao xing jing~~ or feng! yun! bian! se!!!! while making some limb movements which are supposed to look very suave. and the security guard says they're from the SUPERBAND show. omg. i don't watch. but anyway, i thought boybands are like, so 90s.

note: boyband boys just stand around singing, while trying to look very shuai. they do not have much musical talents. like westlife or backstreet boys or F4. but it's not too bad if they can dance vigorously well.
LingS | 1:07 AM

Sometimes i wonder how my brain works. sometimes it feels like maybe a part of it is blocked and i'm only using like 3/4 of it you know what i mean? i told brandon to meet me when i finish work at 6.20pm but obviously i meant 5.20pm. my brain was thinking 520 but somehow the speech part of my brain is blocked and i said 620 but my brain didn't notice that and registered 520 even though i repeatedly said 620. so at 520 i was waiting around while he was still happily sitting at home watching tv. i almost got strangled to death.

OK maybe you think it's just one innocent isolated case. BUT pearline will know it's not cos she doesn't need to remind me to bring my jacket/lecture notes/pencil case/wallet/handphone to classes for nothing. and sunny doesn't call me cartoon for nothing. and brandon doesn't always wanna pull out his hair for nothing. grr. i am so sad.




LingS | 3:28 PM

Grr working makes me so tired. 7.30am is so not a decent time to wake up everyday my god. already i started my first day bad by triggering the security alarm. and by the 2nd day i was so depressed that i peeled 2 bananas, dumped them into a bowl and poured hershey's chocolate sauce all over. mmmmm..... anyway it's not nice so don't try it.

Heaves a big sigh. i KNEW i should have gotten a more interesting and challenging job! i mean, helloooo i'm wayyyyyy too smart to be doing this calling up geeky IT people and getting them 2 subscribe to some boring IT newsletter thing. i should be doing like some real time financial analysis or something ok. rolls eyes.

Erm, my boss won't be reading this right? i'm juz kidding you know. laughs nervously.

Anyway, i'm back to the old days of looking forward to weekends every week. it's pretty pathetic, like you live your whole life just for 2 days. gah. and melf went to visit john already. i think by the time don goes over john would almost be coming back. gosh! so excited for melf hehe finally they can get 'married'. =P
LingS | 11:01 AM

Ok i've started working. it's really depressing at first, the thought of going back to work after 1 whole month of slacking and doing nothing. and when i get the chance i whine to every single person. but i told myself i should look on the bright side and listed out all the pros and cons of working.


Cons (cons 1st cos looking at the pros later would make me feel better)
1)No more slacking
2)Cannot go out until dinnertime
3)Must wake up early
4)Must sleep early
5)Boring
6)Meaningless
7)I hate commuting in the morning

Pros (yay)
1)Good pay $$$
2)Learn something i hope
3)Occupy some time
4)Brandon will stop nagging
5)Waking up and going to bed early is supposed to be good for health
6)Socialize
7)There's free milo and biscuits in the pantry
8)Walking from purple line to green line at outram park station is good exercise everyday


It's really difficult to come up with more pros really but there. i did it. yay i think i'm happier now. and i just received email that i'm officially FTC for hall orientation yay i'm happierer.


Ohoh! and don and i went to the PC fair last weekend and we're gonna win $10 000 from the lucky draw i tell you. we were gonna use it to buy xbox but he couldn't wait for the money to arrive and went ahead to buy it already bleh. anyway, i think he'll buy a new phone which maybe cost $500 and we'll have $9500 left. then we'll take $3000 to go hong kong for a holiday cos i really wanna go hong kong and we have $6500 left. $200 will go to his driving test so we'll have $6300. i saw a really nice beige jacket from Sprit the other day so i'll get that one and invest the rest of the money left and it'll multiply into $60 000 then $600 000 then $6000 000 then $60 000 000..... omg this is too exciting already!

Yayyyyyyyyyy hong kong!!!!!! anyone need me to get anything from hong kong?
LingS | 8:04 PM

Horrible things have been happening to me.

One dark night while all was quiet and still and i was bathing, i caught a shadow lurking. silently. without a sound. among the fog of the warm shower. then it moved, like a flutter. from one wall to another. i could feel his intent stare. boring through me. all of a sudden, without a warning, it maliciously rushed towards me. i was calm. i ducked. he had launched a futile attack. i hurriedly put on my clothes. retrieved my self defense biological weapon by the name of bygone and fired a shot at him. two. three. fourfivesixseveneightnineten. he tried to run butiwastooquickforhim. he stunned. stumbled and fall backwards, into the deep murky dangerous waters of the bathtub. and i see him shrivel, withering into the velvet night.
LingS | 3:25 PM

I got the newest latest most coolest photoshop cs2 now muahahahahahahahaha but i'm not maximising it cos i'm a freakin noob and i only know how to use the simpler functions. but nevertheless muahahahahaha i've been picking up more skills during my very free time.

This picture was taken long ago when i just bought that cute white dress. and then i edited it and now it looks like some neoprint hahaha.







This was during bling bling. i tried to give huiyian a nice lipstick and eyelashes, valerie has BIGGER eyes, i have greyish eyes plus eyebrows plus lashes and i made my nose smaller and my lips thicker and then she totally does not look like me anymore. :D





Original pic. ha! ok my editing is too exaggerating but that is what xiaxue does to her photos alllllll the time. which was admirable, considering how much time you hafta waste editing each single freakin photo to make your eyes look bigger nose smaller boobs perkier etc.



OK a less exaggerated one. i made everyone's complexion perfect and got rid of all our eyebags! and cheryl has slightly bigger eyes. i couldn't resist giving melf some lipstck haha... yay!

LingS | 1:27 PM