It has been almost a month since i moved into hall already. i thought i'd get used to staying away from home again, after a 3-month long vacation in the comfort of mummy's home-brewed soup and my nice soft bed-without-the-plastic-cover.

But i still miss home :(

Being kept occupied with the crazy activities going on in hall hasn't stop me from missing home. it made me yearn for it more, to seek retreat from everything that has been pressurizing me. sometimes i felt as though if i'd go home and hide under the covers, everything will turn out right just by themselves.

No doubt i've got plenty of psychotic friends here who are the main reason why i continued my stay. but then again plenty of reasons make me wanna escape back into my comfort zone again. i know i should get used to it cos it's the REAL world. the REAL world means that people are not nice even though they pretend to be nice and they might only be nice if they want something from you and then they pretend to be all chummychummy but they are all just so selfish.

And they judge you. it could be good and bad. i did a moaning myrtle well and everyone thinks i can act. which is kinda flattering but i really was just being myself in the character. bad? is just baddddddd. i don't like it. and nothing could ever shelter me from that i know.

Really, there's a difference between passing a judgement and making an observation. one could be done in a spur of the moment, it doesn't have to be valid, you don't have to know me. while the latter is learnt after some experiences, and letting them pass by some grey matter.

But of cos, you can't expect humans not to pass judgements cos humans ARE humans. and sometimes they didn't mean to do it (duh i do that sometimes too). just that certain things that certain people say at certain times can be most hurtful. :(

Hmmm. but no matter. cos if it's you, i've already forgiven you! i hope that you will find it able to swallow all my lousy bits too, no matter how bitter it gets in future...


On a side note, i had a great birthday! more updates later...........
LingS | 6:15 PM

Happy birthday to me! i'm 20 today!
LingS | 4:51 PM

Hi! lemme update about formal dinner. by updating it actually means posting photos. :)

The menu and candle at the dining table. it was so sweet. :) a little incident happened during the dinner. we were one of the latest group to be seated so our table was furthest out from the stage. but when food was served, we were denied of ours cos our table supposed to be a 'muslim' table. that's reeeeeally strange cos i picked up the menu and it says nothing about being muslim. plus, muslim table means only muslims can sit, so they have to date fellow muslims ah?

So strange. while waiting for the incident to be resloved, we happily occupied our time by discussing about supper and snapping bo liao photos. so it's ok.

Pre-dinner. i look nice with my lipstick still there. me, anuja, dilys, pearline.

My date Richmond! and my rag dance partner too. he is NOT A PRC, not that i have anything to do against prcs ok ahem. just that... erm... er.... urbs... ya... anyway he's a Filipino. :) heehee... my hair was so messy cos it was windy!

He also not PRC. but he chinaman. qingyou.

My dear cheryl is so sexy slurps.

3 of the 'aristocrats' freshie guys from rag dance. weiliang, richmond and tze wee.

Tze wee kaypo king thinks the pratas he ate from fong seng are free. free ah free ah free ah.

Weiliang my singing partner. he's the first and only person i found who could sing shan hu hai properly with me! so exciting.

Sunny is the top arts student. man i'm surrounded by geniuses. why can't some of their geniusity rub onto me. whywhywhy.

Me baolai and cheryl.

Rina is the prettiest girlie in hall muacksmuacksslurpslsurpsyummyyummm....

Tat Hsien and i with our rag dance opening pose. actually my pose wasn't fixed at all, we thought up numerous different poses at each different practice/performance heehee. so we did a generic pose for the camera. can do.

Albert fuuuuuu. cheryl looks like a beer model!

Last photo of some of the girls from E block. hmmmm i don't really know all of them yet. but hopefully i will sooooon!! anuja is sick.

Opps!! i wanted to post some other photos but i realized that i've forgotten to upload them. :s my memory is failing me halp!!! last night i forgot to bring my house keys, my mum had to keep the front gate unlocked and risk perverts barging in. sometimes when i go shower i forget to bring my towel. and this only happens since the current semester. something is wrong with me!!!

Must be the wisdom teeth.

LingS | 11:51 PM

Kent Ridge Hall will be showcasing our winning float and dance on this coming saturday, at Plaza Singapura, 4.20pm and 7.20pm respectively. other halls and faculties will be showcasing parts of their floats and dances as well.

So if you happen to be in town on saturday, do drop by and catch us! no freaky body paint this time. can see us in FLESH literally. hardeehaha.
LingS | 3:26 AM

A break from rag update since i got no photos. ahem.

Me and RJ geek are getting along with each other again. teehee. it's kinda funny, like the both of us were damn pissed at each other for almost a week. but the night before rag day we talked to each other on the phone for a while then suddenly we're going out for dinner and catch fireworks the next day. it wasn't even a good conversation cos i thought we hadn't resolved much during it. i will still quite upset after the call. but HEY it's rag day how can i be sad right. i was supposed to be the idiotically silly and happy dancer who comes out, act cute and pretend to blow the whistle, you know.

Hmm. but anyway. i know what your invitation for dinner and fireworks means. sometimes actions speak louder than words. i appreciate all that you've done, and i think i'm beginning to understand you more (so good right).

But all these take time. and as we're discovering more new things about each other, conflicts are bound to surface. so ugly, and so hurtful, that sometimes i almost didn't have the courage to try to overcome them. but darling sherilyn is such a dear, and so encouraging. she reprimanded me for being an escapist when i tried to ignore the whole affair. it was after that, that i decided to call YOU. i realised how important it is to learn to put down my pride at appropriate times (which wasn't easy ok).

I think i'm pretty spoilt. most of the time people had to give in to me. even my little sister gives in to me. ok maybe because i'm super irritatingly whiney they couldn't stand me and the easiest way was to give in. if not it must be cos i'm RIGHT ALL THE TIME (which is wrong). gah. so. when you're trying to build a close relationship with someone you love very much whom you think will give in to you all the time.... you shouldn't think that. cos that's selfish. i must remember that.

Yup. but that doesn't mean that I WILL GIVE IN TO YOU ALL THE TIME OK YOU GRRRRRRR BETTER TREAT ME NICER THIS WEEK hahahhahahahahhahhahaha. i want flowers. melf ask me to ask you cos john gave her bigbig orchids.
LingS | 12:55 AM

Hi! i got so much things to update about. but as usual the photos are not ready yet haha! without any photos i feel damn xian to blog. but nevermind. lemme hao lian about KR RAG and FLAG first.

We swept 7 awards. including:

Best Environmental Friendly Float for Halls of Residence
Best Float Presentation for Halls of Residence
Best Float for Halls of Residence
OSA Creativity Shield (whatever that is)
Best Flag Day Collection for Halls of Residence
Most Commendable Progress by Increase in Actual Amount
Overall Champion for Halls of Residence

So we managed to snatch the chancellor's shield. wahaha the onlt awards we didn't win were Least Cost Float and Best Float Design. KE7 deserved to win float design really haha their float was soooo interesting (sorry photos later).

HAHA but the group of people most boo-ed by the spectators on rag day were the mcs. they keep announcimg the wrong results and made us feel sad for nothing. like wtf! best float design is science! oh sorry sorry it's business. science can you come back and return the award? best float presentation is ke7! oh no sorry we made a mistake. it's kent ridge hall. oh i'm sorry we made a mistake. oh ok errrr ya it's kent ridge hall. -_-

Bleh. ok cheryl is in my room now i wanna talk to her i shall blog more later byebye!
LingS | 12:05 PM

Wow like how long has it been since someone has asked me for a date. haha...

I haven't had a chance to say that i will seriously seriously consider yet but i guess i will go. which means i will skip monday's film and history lecture with melf hahaha. it's so silly to skip lecture for formal dinner right hmmmmmmm..... but he's being so nice i can't bear to reject him.

Besides, he's my rag dance partner, if i said no he might one day 'accidentally' drop me on a stunt at mid-air leh. (actually he has done it a few times before :S)

And he was from RJ. no offense, but we know how petty some RJ people can get.

Nevermind. i hope he gives me lotsa flowers and my favourite chocolates and make me very happy :)

Whee!! so exciting. i will wear my nice little white dress!

2 more days to rag. i'm praying so hard that every single little thing will go well cos this means so much to me now.
LingS | 12:27 AM

Happy national day!

3 more days to rag.

Gogogo.

There's so much to do at rag to occupy myself now.

It clears my mind of other unneccesary issues.

And before i know it, rag will be over, i would feel great. the hurt would be gone. i would learn to be indifferent. i really should.

And forget.

I'm sick of feeling deliberately threatened again.
LingS | 2:26 AM

I think someone hates me.

Really, i never thought that he would be capable of such hurtful accusations to me, or in fact, to anybody, at all. it felt so weird, as though any good thing that happened right before were only signs of tolerance. and like others so many, he proved to be capable of passing assumptous judgements on me as well.

4 days to rag. i've injured my back, slept less than 5 hours everyday, had irregular meals, dealt with responsibilities as a senior resident/rag dancer, go to bed with aches all over (and still have to go for flag day arggghhhhhh). i'm not having a good time at all. but i'm still trying veryvery hard to be friendly to the freshmen and nice to everyone. anuja says she's proud of me hahhaa thanks sobsobs. it's such a rough time i'm so glad that i have some support :)

But of course, you have every right to think that however rough time i'm going through now, you are having a much worse time at work that compromised your dignity.

Still, i don't deserve such treatment at all. i hope you realised that.
LingS | 12:41 AM

I've moved back to hall since monday, but haven't found the time to blog seriously cos i'm basically occupied with everything, every hour of my non-sleeping time. so i'm blogging this now in this quiet night while i was supposed to be sleeping. zzz.

But of cos i'm not saying that in a negative way. i'm definately enjoying myself, no matter how stressful things can get (and how many back/neck/shoulder/leg etc. strain i suffered). there's no point slacking when you stay in hall. might as well stay at home right. blah. stay at home and studystudystudy till you drop.

I love studying. i will do all my tutorials when school starts and get As. i will be as hardworking as tweetion teacher. i love econs. it's like the best thing that happened in my life (psycho-ing myself).

Anyway, yay! jazz is over. seniors performance is over. rag is ALMOST over---> in less than 2 weeks(?) orientation will end before next weekend. but i can't really be bothered about orientation cos rag dance is draining all my energy away. gah why must it always end after 2am i'm so sleepy i wanna sleeeeeeeep *whineswhineswhines :(

But looking on the bright side of things, late night practices means my brain is too numb to feel fear of doing stunts already. although i have the highest chance of breaking my neck. i was simply thinking c'mon bring it on i wanna sleeep zzzzzzzzz i didn't even count how many flips we've TRIED doing. must be manymany cos we keep failing. gahhhhhhhhh.

I'm really sleepy now i can't think straight. this is such lousy post. i suck at blogging!!! bye.
LingS | 2:59 AM