It feels like.....

I wanted to take literature for A levels, cos i never liked science. My mum says "ok loh let you try for first 3 months. But after that must study science you know cos got more courses you can take in uni".

"But i don't like science..."

"You will do well in arts meh? literature is so difficult, you're not the angmo kind of person. take science better lah, more realistic. Easier to do well".

I ended up with bad science results and took arts in uni anyway. The truth is, i completely agreed with my mum back then. Even without her preaching, i might still have chosen science. But it would have been nice to be doing something i like, while having someone who supports and believes in you. Of course, i don't blame my mum for the wrong choice of academic course, who knows i might have done worse in arts. But too many a times she never believed my interests would bring me far. "try loh but make sure you do something or something else too in case you fail" is just different from "go for it! i believe you will make it if you're really interested", even in her heart, they both mean "i'll still be here no matter what".

I'm grateful that i have people who knows what's good for me when they think i don't. Just that... planning to fail is downright depressing....
LingS | 12:54 AM