A friend was telling me how her bf pissed her off but she didn't know whether it's right to feel pissed. i told her don't worry that's exactly how i feel allll the time. i'm so confused, i can't tell what's wrong or what's right. i just know that i'm very unhappy. and it's such an irony that i go on the stage everyday to portray sadness, anger, disappointment, lonliness... but yet in life i felt like there's no room for my blues.

Everyday i told myself that i'll be a better person so that everyone will love me more. but what's a better person? the harder you try, the more people will take you for granted. and when people take you for granted, the you think you should try even harder. if there's one thing i learnt from growing up is never to trust anybody completely. neverevereverneverevernever. because you'll fall hard when they eventually stab you in the back. i think i've become more selfish over the years, tend to look after myself more. people always say spread the love but most of the time i only see them spreading the most to themselves.

Ha, that's some disillusioned talk.

I guess that's why sometimes i love to stay in the house so much because i can remain as mummy and daddy's little girl at home.

But outside i have to try and be little superhero girl :( psst even msn is considered outside ok.

I think you are a superhero boy too. you even managed to fly (literally). i'm so proud of you. i hope you'll manage to kill lex luthor and destroy all the green goblins in the world. i wished superhero girl could do something for you too but she's so little that i'm not sure if superhero boy could see her at all. she tried to throw some stones at lex luthor to discover that they are actually kryptonite. how silly of her. i didn't mean to write a fantasy story here but opps i guess i did.
LingS | 11:29 PM