It has been almost a month since i moved into hall already. i thought i'd get used to staying away from home again, after a 3-month long vacation in the comfort of mummy's home-brewed soup and my nice soft bed-without-the-plastic-cover.

But i still miss home :(

Being kept occupied with the crazy activities going on in hall hasn't stop me from missing home. it made me yearn for it more, to seek retreat from everything that has been pressurizing me. sometimes i felt as though if i'd go home and hide under the covers, everything will turn out right just by themselves.

No doubt i've got plenty of psychotic friends here who are the main reason why i continued my stay. but then again plenty of reasons make me wanna escape back into my comfort zone again. i know i should get used to it cos it's the REAL world. the REAL world means that people are not nice even though they pretend to be nice and they might only be nice if they want something from you and then they pretend to be all chummychummy but they are all just so selfish.

And they judge you. it could be good and bad. i did a moaning myrtle well and everyone thinks i can act. which is kinda flattering but i really was just being myself in the character. bad? is just baddddddd. i don't like it. and nothing could ever shelter me from that i know.

Really, there's a difference between passing a judgement and making an observation. one could be done in a spur of the moment, it doesn't have to be valid, you don't have to know me. while the latter is learnt after some experiences, and letting them pass by some grey matter.

But of cos, you can't expect humans not to pass judgements cos humans ARE humans. and sometimes they didn't mean to do it (duh i do that sometimes too). just that certain things that certain people say at certain times can be most hurtful. :(

Hmmm. but no matter. cos if it's you, i've already forgiven you! i hope that you will find it able to swallow all my lousy bits too, no matter how bitter it gets in future...


On a side note, i had a great birthday! more updates later...........
LingS | 6:15 PM