Warning: this is an extremely ranty & complainish post. the following content might make you feel uncomfortable, only if you have a problem with people airing their personal opinions.

Gah! i feel so shitty. my schedules are so messed up and i don't even know how it happened.

A teeny complain about this FTC thingy (aka full-time counselor for freshmen orientation camp). nobody told us what's the job scope and commitment for this. it's just like sign up if you wanna be FTC. then someone asked me if i can make it for the camp. yeah of cos i can. so i'm in. then one week from fwoc itself i was told that you gotta be present every minute of your non-sleeping time 7 days a week for 2 weeks. oh god.

Obviously, this is my fault because i should have asked before enthusiastically volunteering myself and causing all this confusion among the block comm and FTC prospects haha i'm sorry everyone. hmmmph but stilllll i wished someone could have told me earlier instead of now. if it's that important to make sure 100% commitment.

Ok then move on to jazz. when i signed up for jazz it was told that there would be 8 LESSONS and 2 PERFORMANCES. if you are normal like me, you would think ok it's fine. 1 day per week right? no problem. it started mid-june so i thought it should end BY NOW.

But there's no fine print to tell me that practices would be extended to 4 times a week and we would keep accepting events as and when we like. this has become the most erractic commitment of my life cos i kinda feel like i'm now at their beck and call. i mean, i wouldn't mind if i've got nothing better to do. but now i have rag dance, i have fwoc, i don't think i can be blamed for not being able to commit for things which i haven't promised for in the first place.

Still, sometimes i pang sei rag to go jazz. then at times i pang sei jazz to go for rag. sometimes people are very nice about it, they'll ask me so how's rag? tired or not? take care of yourself things like that. but not everyone is understanding about it, and i gotta take the looks from these people. it's real nice that you are free and able to come for practices everyday. sorry i cannot. i can't do much about it. bleh, but that's how people are. when they don't understand your situation they like to blame you and feel all high and mighty cos they are free from what you face.

So if you can figure it out, rag dance + jazz dance + fwoc all happens at the same time.

At least i feel more relieved after stepping down from FTC, which is a gigantic commitment. (even though i was still reluctant). thanks pearlie for talking to me :)

Bah. i'm helpless about my situation. and i know people are unhappy that i'm helpless about my situation too. it's so weird. when i'm free i'm really damn eng lah. but when i'm not, all things start crashing together.

Shit i just remembered that i also got seniors performance and i need to make sure got enough people come. and some people still cannot make up their minds whether they wanna come or not. wah lau!!!!!!

End of ranty post.
LingS | 12:43 AM