I was a waitress today! Teehee! Very fun! My favourite activity is to refill ice water cos it's the easiest job hahha!

Ok then i got home and was rummaging my drawer when i found this old love-confession letter written by a guy (wahhhhhhh ok. i forgot it existed. maybe got more. haha!) and in it he said i was a source of happiness and cheerfulness. Then i remembered dondon telling me long ago how he liked that i was always cheerful and able to make him smile. Then i got really depressed.

Cos i realized how MUCH i've changed over the years. I've lost the motivation to be cheerful ALL the time. There seem to be increasingly more things to worry and feel sad about, that when i think about them i often present a grumpy face to the world. Andand it gets worse because now that i work it's even harder to be cheerful. SO many things to deal with: the lack of experience, the politics, the gossips, time management, tired factor..... wah! It's so hard to be a grown-up. There are more opportunities for me to lose my temper and be a biatch right upfront in your face. So if people like my cheerfulness, maybe now they won't like me anymore!
LingS | 2:30 AM