Of course, ultimately i know what i HAVE to do. You might think i'm stupid, brainless and frivolous and not doing what i claimed to be doing at all. In fact, you do think that. Even so, i don't find the need to prove anything to you. Perhaps i'll need you to believe and understand what sprouted out of my mouth first, then a little support and empathy would be nice.

But i guess it's hard to be encouraging in something you never supported. I don't think i have the right to demand that much.

Sigh. You told me so. You knew it. You expected it. You are right. You are always right. Serves me right. I deserve to feel shitty all by myself. Now i don't even have the courage left to pick up the pieces by myself.
LingS | 5:10 AM