**Update: ok it's now 10.22pm i'm not feeling ok anymore :( i miss you :(:(:(
please call soooooooooooooooooon



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And so he's gone :(

He left i mean. this morning. to Perth. to become a pilot.

For several months, i've been imagining how this airport scene would be like. would it be teary? would i start to break down and cry uncontrollably? would it be happy and cheery?

It was somewhere in between. i didn't get too emotional. i laughed at him a bit and i teared a bit. it was a mixed feeling. i was so sad yet happy at the same time, to see him walk away. he is going to pursue his dream, it was something he had been looking forward to, something that would make him a happy person. AND he promised that he would pay for me to go visit him for a week in december heehee, that was the main thing that kept me going. wheeeeee december!!! only 3 months from now. i need to start saving a lot of $$$

Strangely enough, i felt a huge sense of relief as i watch him walk through the boarding glass door thing. i've been dreading his departure for the last few weeks, desperately trying to cling onto him with every possible chance, as though i could grab more of him here with me. it wasn't a good feeling, i felt like i'm sapping him. but i guess he understands :) brandon is such a sweetheart :):):)

But he's gone now, probably just alighted the plane at this point of time. and i'm feeling completely ok. i'm missing him a lot of cos but that's ok. i will get to see him soon!!! we each got a webcam toooooo (exactly the same one somemore) so hopefully i can get to see his funnyface in a month's time when his internet is set up.

Time to shift my focus to studies. sigh. how meaningless. hahaha...

Alrights i'll try to update my blog more frequently.

I love yooooooooooooou brandon chen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LingS | 3:00 PM