A break from rag update since i got no photos. ahem.

Me and RJ geek are getting along with each other again. teehee. it's kinda funny, like the both of us were damn pissed at each other for almost a week. but the night before rag day we talked to each other on the phone for a while then suddenly we're going out for dinner and catch fireworks the next day. it wasn't even a good conversation cos i thought we hadn't resolved much during it. i will still quite upset after the call. but HEY it's rag day how can i be sad right. i was supposed to be the idiotically silly and happy dancer who comes out, act cute and pretend to blow the whistle, you know.

Hmm. but anyway. i know what your invitation for dinner and fireworks means. sometimes actions speak louder than words. i appreciate all that you've done, and i think i'm beginning to understand you more (so good right).

But all these take time. and as we're discovering more new things about each other, conflicts are bound to surface. so ugly, and so hurtful, that sometimes i almost didn't have the courage to try to overcome them. but darling sherilyn is such a dear, and so encouraging. she reprimanded me for being an escapist when i tried to ignore the whole affair. it was after that, that i decided to call YOU. i realised how important it is to learn to put down my pride at appropriate times (which wasn't easy ok).

I think i'm pretty spoilt. most of the time people had to give in to me. even my little sister gives in to me. ok maybe because i'm super irritatingly whiney they couldn't stand me and the easiest way was to give in. if not it must be cos i'm RIGHT ALL THE TIME (which is wrong). gah. so. when you're trying to build a close relationship with someone you love very much whom you think will give in to you all the time.... you shouldn't think that. cos that's selfish. i must remember that.

Yup. but that doesn't mean that I WILL GIVE IN TO YOU ALL THE TIME OK YOU GRRRRRRR BETTER TREAT ME NICER THIS WEEK hahahhahahahahhahhahaha. i want flowers. melf ask me to ask you cos john gave her bigbig orchids.
LingS | 12:55 AM