I came to realise that i actually do know a lot of friends who are experiencing long distance relationships now. people like melf & john, james & sheryl, people going on exchange, blah. and they still carry on with their lives very normally. so i thought i won't be having much difficulties. i'll just be like them. besides, we're all good and grown up now, no longer sticky or gross like the little couples out there.

I haven't felt that acute sense of anxiety of him leaving.... until yesterday when we talked. "after i come back for a few months i'll be leaving for months again then i'll come back for a while then i'll leave again. that's my life."

It was heart-breaking to hear that.

For a moment, i thought shit what have i gotten myself into??? Honestly, it was everything what i didn't want a relationship to be like. remember the first time i got to know that zoe tay's husband is a pilot, i thought she must be the saddest wife alive.

But as i recalled, at that very point of time i agreed to this commitment, i was the happiest person alive. i thought thorough and hard, front and back, left and right...

And decided that he's still the one for me.

Ok i won't deny that i'm SELFISH. i sorta wished that he didnt have to go sometimes. :(

But at the same time i'm happy that he is, cos he is pursuing his dream. it's a big deal for someone like me who has no substantial dreams.

So after babbbling so much, what i have to say is this.... i have no doubts about my decision at all. i gotta make the best with and treasure what i have now. we'll all work towards a better future!

I love you =)
LingS | 5:32 PM